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| Late Night Northern Lights |
It seemed like such a effortless thing, the random friendship that arose between us through the most random reason morphing into incredible conversations among other things...
“You don't get to choose if you get hurt in this world...but you do have some say in who hurts you. I like my choices.”― John Green, The Fault in Our Stars
Sometimes in life, there are moments that you find yourself acting almost involuntarily... One of the moments is when I met him.
It was as if it was a natural force of motion that I couldn't have acted upon differently even if I tried. He was someone else entirely. Someone out of my circle who had so much in common with me and who had the knack for having the greatest conversations with.
The first time I saw him there was this jolt of electricity that permeated through the air. A current so tangible I could taste it. I knew in an instant this was one of the people I'd like to keep as a friend for a long time.
The question on whether this unlikely relationship turning into something more was never a thought for either of us to even entertain due to circumstances on both sides. And to be honest, I prefer our current arrangement more than any other alternative. This way is much simpler and also, like I said, I'd like to keep him as a friend.
The elimination of all the complicated bullsh*t that comes with the so-called "next level" of things between us allows me, and hopefully vice versa, to be more honest about what I really think.
Of course I do care deeply for this incredible weirdo, but the fact of the matter is that there's just that. For me to fall for the person (which isn't hard to if you know him) would be fighting a losing battle. And I refuse to set myself up for that again.
As such, this person now resides in my ever lengthening list of buddies whom I care about too much to love in that way. And having that compared to the other, more irrational options, is something I wouldn't trade anything else for.
But I will admit that I care about him. Who wouldn't?
It was as if it was a natural force of motion that I couldn't have acted upon differently even if I tried. He was someone else entirely. Someone out of my circle who had so much in common with me and who had the knack for having the greatest conversations with.
The first time I saw him there was this jolt of electricity that permeated through the air. A current so tangible I could taste it. I knew in an instant this was one of the people I'd like to keep as a friend for a long time.
YES, I said Friend!
The question on whether this unlikely relationship turning into something more was never a thought for either of us to even entertain due to circumstances on both sides. And to be honest, I prefer our current arrangement more than any other alternative. This way is much simpler and also, like I said, I'd like to keep him as a friend.
The elimination of all the complicated bullsh*t that comes with the so-called "next level" of things between us allows me, and hopefully vice versa, to be more honest about what I really think.
Of course I do care deeply for this incredible weirdo, but the fact of the matter is that there's just that. For me to fall for the person (which isn't hard to if you know him) would be fighting a losing battle. And I refuse to set myself up for that again.
As such, this person now resides in my ever lengthening list of buddies whom I care about too much to love in that way. And having that compared to the other, more irrational options, is something I wouldn't trade anything else for.
But I will admit that I care about him. Who wouldn't?
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